My Baby is Growing Up & I’m Not Ready

My baby is not such a baby anymore. It seems like just yesterday we were holding Lia for the first time. The night I went into labor still so vivid in my mind as I watch my little crawler explore and get into whatever she can! This weekend has been a huge weekend in our home, not only did we move Lia out of our room and into her own we also transitioned her into her convertible car seat. So first things first-let’s talk about the smaller decision which was moving her into her big girl car seat-because let’s face it by the time I’m done I will probably be in tears.

Lia is a good 18 lbs currently and about 27.25 inches! Where did my little 7lbs 5 oz and 20 inch baby go? Car rides had gotten a little more difficult lately and I figured it could be that car seat! We loved the ability to simply click her car seat into the stroller frame without waking her. It was the easiest thing ever! Sleeping baby-no worries! However, by now every time I held her my arm would hurt. I could no longer carry her in the infant seat. So I could not put it off any longer. I knew the car seat I wanted and I actually bought it about a month ago and it just sat in our back patio. Every time I saw the box I would mention to Marcos that it was time to install it and he would say “No, not yet. She is still little”. I think he was in denial that his baby girl was growing up. Finally, this weekend we could not put it off any longer. Last weekend we took an hour drive and got stuck in traffic turning our commute into a 2.5 hour drive and Lia screamed the whole time. That was the breaking point for me, I figured a change of seat might help. So we changed her car seat and she loved it!

The first time I was sitting her in it I had a flashback. About two weeks after she was born I decided that we needed to get out of the house and we made a trip to Hobby Lobby. When we got there she had fallen asleep and I decided to wear her in the wrap for the first time! I had no idea how to put the wrap on so in the car I found a video on YouTube really quickly and I was able to successfully put her in the wrap without her waking up! I felt like a champ! I remember dancing my way into Hobby Lobby because I felt like a total #momboss ! The icing to the cake was that she stayed asleep and I was even able to put her back in her seat without waking her up! Boy has the time flown by! Now my baby is sitting in her big girl car seat, looking out the window enjoying watching the trees outside.

Maybe we should have decided to do this all in stages to make things easier on me. Nevertheless, we didn’t! We decided it was time for her to sleep in her own room & hoped it meant she would sleep better but I found myself crying before the night was even started. Seeing the empty spot where her crib once was sent me into a crying frenzy. I was the one who thought she might do better & now Im sitting down contemplating on bringing her back to our room…she is already so independent & I am being a big baby. Isn’t it funny how we do worst than our kids? I am here so sad and she is just fine!

There is so much changing & so much growing. Her clothes now are now 9 months + and we have been slowly getting rid of baby gear. Her swing is no longer used & that will soon mean an empty spot in our living room. Since she’s been mobile she doesn’t want to be in her jumperoo anymore, so thats about to go too. All the big items we needed for her before are no longer useful or needed. My baby is growing right before my eyes & I don’t feel like Im ready.



  1. July 9, 2017 / 7:07 pm

    I’m feeling the same! My son is 9 months and I miss the teeny tiny baby!

  2. July 9, 2017 / 8:22 pm

    The bigger they get the more of a personality they develop and it’s really fun too! My daughter is almost 3 and I love this age!

    • July 10, 2017 / 9:13 pm

      yes! that is honestly my favorite stage!

  3. July 9, 2017 / 9:31 pm

    I feel the same about my baby, but also my toddler. Every transition is hard! They just keep getting older!!

    • July 10, 2017 / 9:13 pm

      it has been a very difficult transition for me mostly

  4. July 10, 2017 / 4:41 am

    Oh yes, that car seat change was a game-changer for us too! Our little guy loves that he is higher up and while still rear facing, he can look out the window. And it doesn’t kill our arms to hold him in the infant seat LOL.

    • July 10, 2017 / 9:14 pm

      yes! i couldnt carry the infant seat anymore

  5. July 10, 2017 / 6:54 am

    Oh momma. Stay strong. Mine are 10 & 6! But it’s fun to watch them grow & become independent. But yes I miss those baby days. Enjoy that little one.

    • July 10, 2017 / 9:14 pm

      yes definitely my oldest is 7 and its crazy how fast time flies

  6. July 17, 2017 / 7:45 pm

    I remember feeling like this about my youngest son just about a month ago, I was happy that he was growing but also sad that he was no longer my little baby. Bittersweet isn’t it? I don’t think the conflict ever ends as they just keep growing and being more and more independent. It goes to fast!

    • July 18, 2017 / 1:14 pm

      It is so bittersweet! My oldest is 7 and I still can’t believe how fast its gone by

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